To be or not to be.

The title above doesn't relate at all to what Im about to type. I don't know what should I name my post this time. Well, it is easy for Amni to title each post as numbers. and now her current post is number sixty-five.

Anyways, I didn't go out for two days now. *including today* I was sleeping the whole day yesterday, and in the evening, I was in my room surfing. I could say that the maxis broadband is quite fast these days while Im in BP. :) Surprisingly it is. I watched Wild Child many times even though I watched that movie in the Cinema with my baby huzir sleeping like a baby. I didn't notice that I was talking alone. Nevermind. He must have been very tired. *That's his first time, though* haha and I log in to Facebook all the time 24/7. So, every updates, I think Im the first one to read.

I invited Azliza to go out tomorrow but seems not because she is going to KL and celebrate new years eve there and be back on the 4th of January. There is no time to think of new years eve right now. Well, it comes in the second in my THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT list. I am worried about my results. I was hoping for a High Distinction in Maths and English. And Distinction for Study Skills. and at least a Credit for my Computing Principles. God, my scared are beyond words, I tell you. I can't remember how hard or easy the papers were. Except for Computing Principles. It is damn hard to forget!

I had my plans organized. I have to be back on the 31st. On the 1st of January, my results will be out. And I got 2 days to clean my room perfectly and buy stuff for my second semester. and classes will commence on 5th of January! Scary as it is, Im excited too. :) And, the last of part of the planning is to celebrate new years eve there!

Sometimes, I feels so guilty sleeping for hours and hours and hours doing nothing. Apart from reading eclipse, of course. I think I should read something beneficial like related to my second semester. I should get ahead start but I just don't know what to read and learn. I always have my ahead start. Even before I enter form 5, I get my hands on those biology books during the holidays. I didn't get a clear message on what will be on my second semester but I know what subjects Im taking.

One thing for sure, tomorrow Im going out with my friends and pack all of Nabila's stuff and dump it into her car. All set and I'm ready to go!

p/s: number 3 in my THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT is to think about my new resolutions for year 2009!

SNAP!

My results will be out on the 1st of January. Snap!


Classes starts on 5th of January. Snap!


Need to prepare myself before second semester starts. Snap!


Need to think of my new resolutions for year 2009. Snap!

Bloody Hell.

I HATE MY HANDPHONE.

BLOODY HELL

My phone is so bloody hell. Always 'No Signal' or 'Emergency'. Sickening. I have to stretch my hand so that my phone is up high just to get signal and able to send a message. When I try to call, I have to stand, move front and back just to get that bloody signal for my bloody handphone. Shoot! I just can't wait to get back my other handphone which I sent to a repair shop and hoping it is okay to use.

Well Well Well

Im back in my hometown. Huzir's mom drove all the way from KL to send me back to BP accompanied by Huzir. So, yeah, they met mama and papa. Finally. :P They stayed for awhile. Had lunch at my place. Mama cooked a lot and delishh.

Well, in the evening, for the very first time, I drove Nabila's Perodua Nautica with Sis Anna, my co-pilot and Abang Kerol as my passenger. :D Drove to the town. Around 6 pm, I went out again with Syahidah, picked up my friend Azliza and headed to Amni's house. Just hang out for a while. :D

Nothing much to do today. Just doing mama a favour to buy stuff for her. I'll be back on 31st December. And I could celebrate New Year's Eve there! :D

Thank You.

I am now officially 18 years old.
Sweet 18.
Legal.

Right 12.00am today, Baby wishes me. He is the first one who wishes me Happy Birthday Darling. Well, that was his dream to be the one to do so. :) Anyways, he bought one big chocolate cake from Secret Recipe. :) and gave me one book of love from him. Written all of his love in that black book. I am surprised because he put so much effort in it and Im touched. Thank you sayang. That is the best gift and I appreciate it sayang. I love you sooo much baby. We celebrate at his place since no where nice place that I want to go. :D

Nabila called from London :D Her friends, were shouting Happy Birthday to me. Thank you!! :D

My friends all wishes me this morning. Thank you, you guys. *Hugs and kisses*

Huzir is being gedik. :D

Umar said : "This cake is irresistible." :D

Woot Woot

So, I was in KL on 19th Dec, at 11.14 am. Baby huzir picked me up at R&R Serdang. I was soooo happy to finally meet him again. Totally forgot how his face looks like because all I know was, I missed him soo much. :D So, on that day, we watched Wild Child at MidValley Megamall. Thought wanna watch Twilight but the seat was too too front.

On the 20th Dec, went to Ipoh Perak for his cousin's wedding. It was a fun trip and a bit tiring but that doesn't matter because he is beside me all the time. :D

So, today.. is his birthday. Huzir's Birthday. I gave him a chocolate heart-shaped cake which I made it myself. Emphasize on the 'I made it myself' part. Hehe. I was working hard to make that cake a success. :D I love it. *I hope you like the cake which I made it myself, baby.* I put a lot of effort to do that cake. ALONE. No one help me. Not even my maid. Cis! :P

Well, its the thought that counts.

So, here is my birthday song from me to you,

Happy birthday, baby..
Happy birthday, baby..
Happy birthday to my only baby..
Happy birthday to you..

I love you so much! You are ... now. Don't deny it baby. :D

Just now, we went out and watched When The Earth Stood Still. It was interesting as it is. :D Just hang out and had fun. :D

Then, I was on the phone with mama. I said, I wanna stay a little bit longer in KL and mama was like asking papa. Papa said.. "Okay". Okay for papa means Okay for mama. Woot Woot! :D Im loving it!

Here are some of the pictures. The picture with the cake that I baked is not available right now but will be uploaded later. :D :-

Money CAN Buy Happiness.

Who says money can't buy happiness? For some reasons money can and cannot.

Money CAN buy happiness.
1) You no need to worry to think of your financial problems.
2) When you have money, you some sort of feel secure.
3) If you have only money, you can survive!
4) When you have no financial problems, you ARE happy.
5) When you have no financial problems, you will feel MORE RELAX and not feeling stress.
6) Like you when you win lottery or whatever, you get money and HAPPY in return.
7) In short, money is important and it does brings happiness.

Money CANNOT buy happiness.
1) If you are rich, but lack of love, no point.



Well, obviously I agree on Money CAN buy happiness.

Although, every situation depends.

For me, no money, whats the point? You ain't going no where, You will lead into a messy life, You will increase your stress hormone due to the problems you are facing, You will face a lot of diseases etc. Indeed, money CAN buy happiness. I just couldn't agree more.

O ma God O ma God!

I totally forgot to tell you. On Monday, I had my JPJ driving test. I waited for my turn to drive that damn kancil and I able to do so in the afternoon. Like around 3.00 something. I drive properly and do like I was thought.

and I PASSED.

woot woot. I know I always can drive. *hehe* Anyways, I passed the test and I was shouting happily on the phone with baby huzir that I succeed! :P No more going to driving practice No more going to face another JPJ officer. No more I tell ya. As soon after I came out from the car that I drove, I called mama. And mama was saying, "Wowww.Congratulations, adik. After this, you can drive my mercedes car." and I was like "TAAKKNAAKKK. I want Suzuki Swift!" :P
I suppose to get my Suzuki Swift, red colour. Papa booked the car in January for me but since I haven't get my license yet, Papa cancelled it. Nevermind though. I'll get it eventually. :D

Okay, I've done the 2nd part of my HAVE TO DO list. The first one is to get my Passport and Yay Me, I get it. :D

Tomorrow I shall do the 3rd part in my HAVE TO DO list. which is, Im gonna dye my hair. :) New colour for new year. hehe I am thinking to colour my hair dark red. But, we'll see.

Since my sister already left Malaysia yesterday at 3am, Im alone in this mansion! Maid that always busy cleaning, mama working. and no one to talk to. LUCKILY I can online anytime I want. I didn't go out even I have my driving license now. So, I spent my time reading this book titled 'eclipse'. I think it is the continuation from 'twilight' which is now in the Cinemas. Interesting book to read.

Well, thats that. Can't wait to go back to KL!! :D

Planning a Plan.

I can't help myself but to look at the calendar and plan.


Plans:
19 Dec
- 8.30 am off to KL
- Around 11.30 am -12.00 pm arrive KL, baby huzir will fetch me.
- Go out till late at night. Watch movies MARATHON! because I promise him to watch all the movies that we missed while we had our finals and I didn't watch it while Im at hometown.

20th Dec
- Go to the Kak Alia's wedding. *baby Huzir's cousin*
- Went out AGAIN!!!! woot woot :D

21th Dec
- Baby Huzir's Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*ENOUGH said. :D*

22nd Dec
- Suppose to go back but I decided to stay a little bit longer.
Just spend time with my baby.

23rd Dec
- So many things to do So little time. INDEED time is jealous of me.

24th Dec
- My birthday! Sweet sweet 18. :D *Me and Huzir are December babies.Weeeeeeeee*

25th Dec
- Heading back hometown.

26th Dec
- Ponge Ponge Ponge

27th Dec
- Hangout with friends, I guess.

28th 29th 30th Dec
- Same old drama.

31st Dec
- Going back KL!!!
- Celebrate New Year!!

My plans for few more days before new year 2009 appears!!

Huzir.KL.Birthdays.

Alright. Here is the thing.

I've been staying home and do nothing. I didn't hang out with my friends except that one time Syahidah *my BFF* came and lepak at my house. and for other reasons, I went out with Nabila to buy stuff because she is going to London. WITHOUT me. Sick right. I know.

The Main Point is that.. I need to get my social life back!!

Okay. Back to what Im saying, I was bored and so I started planning to go back to KL this Saturday morning (20th Dec) due to huzir cousin's wedding which I was invited. So, I told mama and she said, "sure.You can go.Go on the 19th Dec and be back on 22nd Dec". She knows that baby Huzir's birthday on the 21st. :D But I was thinking to stay a little bit longer in KL since my birthday is on 24th of Dec. So that I could celebrate my birthday with baby huzir for the very first time.

Like .. HELL-OOOOO what am I going to do to celebrate my 18th birthday here???There will be no celebration at all! My friends are not in BP either. Mutiara off to Hong Kong already, Amni started her second semester already, Liza off to Bali, Syahidah I don't know and Nadira I have no idea.

I DON'T CARE. I can't wait to go back to KL because I miss baby Huzir and Im craving for Paddington Pancake. :D

My birthday is coming up! I am expecting something reallyyy reallyyy breathtaking from my sister Nabila. *You better buy me good stuff sista!* :D I can't wait to just spend time with baby huzir. Thats the only gift I want from him. Muacksss! :)

Weak ..

I feel so weak now.
So long haven't seen my baby huzir.
Miss him terribly
:(
Only God knows how I miss him so much.



My daily routine here in my hometown apart from missing baby huzir so fucking much, are
sleep like never sleep before
eat like always
go out with sis Nabila like it is A must
Surfing is my favourite *even the connection sucks!*
Korean dramas Taiwan movies Japan series fills up my day
On the phone with baby huzir like my first priority now
all of these make me can't wait to start my second semester!
oh God, speed up the time.
Please!

First Love vs True Love

Simple.

First love is the love that you will never ever forget. Well, at least you still remember his/her name. More like, the moment that drags you to the love world for the very first time.

True love is the love that you have it truly madly deeply. Like, it seems that you have found the right one. Willing to sacrifice for the one you love. Now, that is true love.

A big NO-NO for you to get married with your first love. Why?
1) It's more like your not-so puppy love. Still young to decide.
2)First loves are always sucks. *Either he/she pathetic or a jerk.
3)No experience at all! You should find experiences. Meet with new people, get a new guy, have a new relationship, know people, be wild hunting your partner and stop when you think found one ... etc.
4)No experience in breaking up. and one day, when your relationship doesn't work out, you'll end up getting fucking hurt. *Trust me. because you never feel it before.
5)You start to depend on your partner too too much until you feel that you got no life anymore when he started to turn his back on you.
6)You have no experiences in all sorts kind of love. Its all about experiences that makes you even better and that is when you find your true love.

True love always the best one. Why?
1) Like duuhh~
2) The right one or should I say, Mr Right or Mr You-Are-The-One. :D
3) You know how to deal with such relationships. and know how to handle any problems intelligently.
4) You are aware with any type of situations and makes you know what to do.
5) You are smart enough already to know what's up with your partner.
6) By the time you think you found your true love, you have gain experiences.
7) Well, go hunt for your Mr. Right then. :D

Well, my first love was the suck-est. So called first-love. haha. But, I don't regret because it is part of life when you make mistakes and just deal with it. I just think of it as my experiences in life. But then again, you might not know what is going to happen in life. It is just a random topic in my point of view after witnessing all sorts of love tragedy! :D

*No need to talk about my true love now lah. You know already what.. :P ;)

Missing You

I am in BatuPahat now. Reached house around 4 pm. Traffic jam in Seremban. Guess everyone balik kampung.

HOME SWEET HOME

Missing baby huzir so much. Hope he is okay all by himself.
To kak hana: Jage huzir like u always do. Die menggatal, belasah die.

Nothing much to do here. Maxis Broadband sucks. So lembab. Have no plans for tomorrow. I decided to really enjoy my holiday this time. Because my second semester will be more tougher than ever! *everyone said so.* Need to relax my mind for as long as I can!

I Hate the past

I HATE THE PAST
IT IS SUCH A DISTURBING
I JUST HATE HIM
HE MAKES MY LIFE NOW MORE MISERABLE THAN EVER!
HE MAKES MY BOYFRIEND'S LIFE EVEN MORE AND MORE MISERABLE!
WHY CAN'T HE JUST BACK OFF AND STAY AWAY FROM ME
GOD.. HOW I HATE HIM SO MUCH

Anyways, this HIM Im talking about is my Ex. My STUPID Ex! He is such a desperate person.
STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID
God, Hate him gile babi lah.
Enough said.

To my baby Huzir,
Sorry sayang for this incident. I need your trust. I want you to know that I love you and NOT him. It will never be HIM. never going to be HIM. HE will never ever be able to get the position to be with me. I love you so much.

Ada ke.. Iyer ke..

People said my face looks like Fazura the actress.
Some said Fazura looks like me.
Some said the shape of my face is the same as Fazura's which makes us looks alike.
Which makes no difference since my pipi sudah tembam.
Well, mama and papa said I'm prettier than Fazura.
:D :P ;)

Sabrina.Sabrina?Sabrina!

A few hundred things about me :

-I used to be a not morning person which I easily get annoyed. So, don't talk to me when I'm not even talking to you. *that was last time* and now I noticed that I am a morning person. Never gets mad at anyone.
-I love dressing up. I even look up in the magazine for newest and the latest fashion. Well, that was during my high school time.
-I noticed that I'm not into 'jambu' type of guys. Yes, they maybe attractive and cute etc, but it just doesn't work for me that way.
-I hate goody-goody-two-shoes guys. They are just pathetic. There are no such thing as goody-goody nowadays.
-I noticed that I love wearing flip flops or thongs or flats instead of sneakers.
-I love doing assignments even though it keeps on bugging me to finish it up.
-I hate shopping for accessories like earrings.
-I can easily cry especially when gets hurt by the special ones and I can't see or hear my loved one cries.
-I adores evening dresses :D
-HATE LALAs. Makes me sick. *sumpah benci*
-hate being neglected!!!!!!!
-I am veerryyy sensitive. Sensitive in every little little things..
-I adores short hair like Rihanna
-I enjoys going out. Love going somewhere else rather than to a shopping mall.
-I noticed that I hate trying new food or new drinks that I never try it before. Likes to stick to what I like.
-always eager to know how if I punch someone feels like. :D
-love facebooking, myspace-ing, and friendster-ing my boyfriend's.
-always wanted to go the beach and have a nice picnic under the bright sunshine wearing evening dresses like an english girl.
-I noticed that I can remember song lyrics easily. I can catch up the words like after twice repeated.
-Enjoys playing games like Pet Society in Facebook :D
-I cannot sleep for long hours.
-I can easily be awake.
-I adores blueberry cake! :D nyummmmmmmmmmmmmm
-my pastime is to surf internet, browse anyone's blog, read up about their life, play with my 'pet' in facebook, nibble on something, clean up my always-messy room.
-I love being with my baby huzir. makes me feel alive cuz he always make stuuuuuppppiddddddddddd jokes.
-I love to repeat stuff that I've hear or watch. like if I bought a CD or DVD, I can watch it many times till I remember every word or sentence said in the movie. :D
-Easily get bored with Boring People.
-In my opinion, I think that life will be interesting if we face something different or new each day. Doesn't matter how bad it will be or how happy it is.
-I hate guys who thinks that they are the best. That is just BULLSHIT.
-I noticed that, in front of the people I hate, I will tell them right in the face without mercy.
-I always keep things to myself when I cannot even express myself.
-I am planning to do International Business and Management later. :D
-uuuuuuuuuuuu how I love maths so much. :D
-I love kids. Cute cute babies.
-Im mixxxxx Chinese Jawa Arab and Melayu, of course :D
-I don't like making people sad or malu..
-I can be very emotional sometimes.

That's all I could say for now after days evaluate myself. hehe :D

Dang!

I had my English exam today. I woke up early and revise again and again on the spotted essays. I printed out the possible essays and it turned out to be helpful. *It's not that the question came out exactly the same only that it kinda help me in some ways. Like extra vocabulary words, a perfect linkers for my essay etc.* Neways, I think I have done quite well just now.. A dalam tangan! *like what my friend, K, said, self motivation is good.* haha :D

Obviously, tomorrow I have no papers. Im just gonna start revising my computing principle that I need to focus on all of the 7 chapters. *which now I hate everything bout computer technology that makes my life even more miserable!*

alahai..

Many things are bothering me..
- Final Exam *how la weh how la..
- Need to study hard to get MOOORREE than just a pass
- Wondering where to continue after this foundation
- Thinking to smooth talk with mama about going to London with my dearest sister, Nabila
- Thinking what to do in BatuPahat later...

It makes me arrgghhhh nak holiday!!
It makes me wanna eat a lot *which mama have to start worrying now if I am eating too much*
It makes me feel wanna speed up the time
It makes me wanna finish me papers..
It makes me wanna go somewhere special where I can feel like Im on a vacation

However, Im trying to think positively ..and just thinking for the time being. for the short period.
:(

ARRRGHHH.. kusut masai susah hati jiwa kacau

My time to be happy..

How do I get to know Huzir? Well, that moments are still fresh in my mind. How his face reaction was, how was the feeling at that time, and how I cheated my boyfriend over Huzir. Its bad but I had a huge crush over him and I just could not resist the fact that Im loving someone else instead of my boyfriend. Well, obviously he makes me feel different while for my boyfriend (that time) was controlling me like hell! Track me down using the Friend Finder thingy makes me wanna slap him right at the face! Well, bygone be bygone. I still can recall the FIRST time I met him in college.

At that time, I was in Sunway University College where I kinda passed by him and kinda see but never look at him. I could say that I bumped into him like ..once in a week which is not so often. But, there is one time I was at the Pink restaurant heading inside the college where I met him and I actually smiled at him. I was like a .. Hey-I-Noticed-You-Smile. I didn't think any further but secretly I was attracted to him.

Days past by till this time when I was in the computer lab doing my work, I saw him and smiled at him. *just a friendly smile since I smiled at him before*. No big. I started doing my work. After few minutes later, someone enters the lab room that I was in and asking whether there is a class or not. I said no and surprisingly noticed that it was THAT guy. He started walking to the seat right next to me and asking me hoping that he can seat right next to me. I have piles of stuff that I have to dump it on my lap just to give up that seat. Okay. That was fine by me. As he was busy doing his thang, I glanced over at his computer and he was browsing over some car websites (e-kereta or something). The next thing I know was, he logged off his computer, turned to me, and say ..

"I don't know what Im doing here. Actually Im here to get your phone number".

He straight away took out his O2 PDA and hoping that I give him my phone number. LUCKILY, I did! :D The night itself we texted each other, talked on the phone like no one cares. Just love those moments when he accompanied me in college till night and I start develop some feelings for him. and I just loves it! Adventurous moments when my boyfriend called me saying that he knows where I am *cuz he friend finder me*. So, he have to send me back to college afraid that I might get scolded by my boyfriend. *I just hated it*. We went to Genting Highland one week after he wanted a full commitment relationship with me, he came to BatuPahat and meet my parents, just enjoying every moment of it. I can still feel those feelings everytime I looked at him.

Always think that..

"Is this the guy that I met back in those days?" "Is this the guy that made me go crazy only that I pretend that I am not?" "Is this the guy that I was jealous when his not-so-ex called him eventhough I have no rights to say anything since I am still attached to my boyfriend?" "Is this the guy?"

Well, it is and Im glad that he is. I love him. So much. I couldnt say more.. Saying those words is just not enough.

Him = He = My One = My Only = Huzir..

I Quote,

The Happiness You Give Is Something I'll Never Get Enough Of,
I Love Having You In My World
And I Love Having You To Love.

-Huzir Zainal

P/S: He mentioned to me bout not posting anything bout him in my blog.
Da post ni da, b :)

Model for the day

Kak Hana asked me a favor being her model for MAC membership. So, I am a bride for today. :)
So, here some shots.

Taadddaaa!



More pictures just go to Madam Hana blog.
:)

If..

What if killing, shooting, murdering are legal in this country, who is your first and the following targets?

1) My One and Only Lecturer
2) Men that look at women like never seen one.
3) All of my boyfriend's ex-es who still contacting him. *like stay away la weh.
4) The man in the movie "I am A Sex Addict". *He just disgust me.
5) The person who created cigarettes.
6) The person who started all the alcoholic drinks.
7) One guy that almost ruin my life once upon a time. *luckily I'm not that stupid.
8) Perverts, Flasher .. whatever you named it.

Who are yours?
:D
Share it with me.

After this that there here..

As what has planned, today I supposed to buy a new laptop which I did. :) Instead of buying the HP Pavilion tx 2500, I bought Sony VGN-FW23GW. The screen is ssuuuppeerr duppeerr huge. puas wehh kalau tgk movie *especially when watching Gossip Girl* Anyways, I bought it after all the dramas in MidValley. Thought wanna go to Digital Mall but seemed we were running out of time, I just bought this laptop since this is the only laptop that Im attracted to. :)

Meet up with Huzir's mom and had dinner. Had the the whole day searching for the perfect laptop. phheewww tired..~~

Pervert!

Okay. As you all know, Im staying in HELP residence which there is a constructing going on in front of my building. So, the scenery I can view from my bedroom's window is a building undergo construction. WHICH means a lot of Indonesian, Banglas.. vietnamese and all. As usuall, I open the curtains to let the bright sunshine shines into my bedroom. As I were looking outside, I spotted one Indonesian workers. He was sweeping the floor *or doing something which I don't even care*. All out of the sudden, he stopped sweeping and look straight at my direction. and he WAVES at me!!! I was like.. WHAT THE HELLLLLL???? is it Im perasan or that guy is just a pervert? GOD! I was super scared. Then, I bend down, lay down my head on my table. After awhile, I try to look and see whether he is still looking or not. I got more freaked out when he was smiling!! I noticed that because all I can see is that white teeth of his which makes me OHH MYYY GOD! Scary Freaky Pervert!

I quickly close the curtain and just stay away from the window. Huh.. what a morning pervert experience I had just now.. :S

Dear Syahidah..

Dear Syahidah..

Wherever you are right now..
I miss you
We used to be so closed
but now we barely talk to each other
What are you doing?
Are you happy with your life?
Are you doing well there?
You are miles away from me
Even I'm in front of you, you keep things to yourself
I miss you.. :(
Where have you been all this while?
Remember you are always there when I'm sad, when I cursed guys and you still support me in every way..
Remember you told me .. "Take things that happened positively"..
and I did..
You are my partner in anything.
My crime partner, my chenta, my girlfriend, my childhood partner.
*till Nabila said we are like isi dengan kuku*
I'm just wondering why you haven't contact me..
I want you to know I'm here for you even though we are far away from each other..
Or is it my fault?
Whatever it is.. I miss you. :"(

Fuiiyyooooo

Excitingly I have done my assignments and handed in already. The best thing in doing assignments is after all the hard work and effort u put in, you will somehow feel the satisfaction after the assignments are completed. Which it makes me feel good. yeah bebeh. :) Now, i got few other things to do. JUST computing principles and maths quiz, computing principle powerpoint presentation, English oral presentation, and final exam. Yeap.. just few other things to go. That is why I'm taking one step at a time (the song by Jordan Sparks) :P .. I recovered from my fever already. I gave my lecturer medical certificate the day I absent for his class. He was like.. "Why sabrina.. always sick?" Cuz last time, I had my diarrhoea and it happened on the day I am having class with him.. So, I said "I had fever, sir. Plus, I have a very low antibody" :P Then, it was settled.

My english presentation is next week on Tuesday. So, I decided to wear the dress that I bought last month which I just wore it once for a sweet date on Saturday with my baby. It is black with small flowery design on it. With my hair tight up nicely, and pair of heels from Nine West elegantly holding a Nine West handbag. Classy right.. :D I have to present myself properly so that I am confident to do my presentation. :)

Yesterday Nabila called me and crying. I was like.. why whats up again la with this girl. Emotional breakdown. Sad of her love life or exams. I thought. Well, she cried because my sister, Kak Ana is sick. Really sick. She has spinal cord slipped-disk like mama had last time because of carrying my fatty bom bom Nabila when she was little. *When I say fatty bom bom, imagine a polar bear because she was white like snowwww and fat like a polar bear. Which is cute, actually. haha!!* anyways, Nabila cried .. pity on kak Ana. Kak Ana cannot move a lot, cannot go to work as a physiotherapist, cannot cook, shopping for hours.... cannot do anything!! I was sad when Nabila cried telling me that. *Kesian kak ana. :'( * Hope she will undergo operation and lead a normal life back. Don't worry kak Ana.. you have your sisters to take care of you! Get well soon. *Hugs and kisses mwah mwah mwahhhhhhhhhhhh*

Anyways, I feels like wanna grab this phone!!

LG KS360

*sigh..

I can't sleep well. My head is spinning. Feels so heavy. Feels wanna explode! I hate it.. I vomited twice yesterday night.. happened around 2 am.. and baby huzir straight away come and see me.. gave me medicine which I don't have it with me.. :( I didn't go for classes for two days now including this morning. Missed lectures a lot, i guess. SHIT. have to see lecturer especially my maths lecturer. She thought new chapter yesterday evening. Damn it. Then, I vomited again around 4 am.. since I vomited all out at 2am, I vomited liquid substances only at 4am. I had fever with complete headache package. ARRHHHH.. feels like wanna bang my head against the wall. I didn't eat the whole day yesterday. Baby Huzir brought porridge for me but I just ate for 3 spoon feed. Thats my meal for yesterday. Drank one small bottle of 100plus. I felt a little bit better today. but my head still spinning. Baby huzir didn't get much sleep as he was taking care of me. Poor baby. Anyways, this morning, I woke up around 10 am, which I missed my classes, I feel so hungry that I wants to eat something that is spicy, like asam laksa.. so, baby huzir took me to Medan near Sunway College. Instead of eating asam laksa, I ate nasi lemak with sambal sotong. Looks delish but once it enters my throat, feels like wanna vomit. But today, my fever went off already. just headache is still on. Hope it went off as soon as possible as I HAVE FUCKING LOT ASSIGNMENTS DUE NEXT WEEK!! :"((

The good Old times

I just visited amni's blog. She posted some pictures. pictures of all of us. I forgot on how we used to be very damn good friend. In school, always been the four of us. *Liza and Nadira went to boarding school* The best part was the four of us (Amni, Syahidah, Mutiara and I) were prefect that time. and Amni was the head of prefect. So, what the heck ey. hehe Even though Liza and Nadira is apart from us, we still see each other once in awhile. We all became super good friends when we were in Form 2. I sat right next to Liza and becomes best friend. Really miss those moments when we had our own song. Like others, we have our own group name. Shii which define as Happy. *but the group name doesn't exist now since we all grown up but the name will always be remembered* We even have our own song..

" wishing on a dream that seems far off

hoping it will come today

into the starlit night

foolish dreamers turn their gaze

waiting on a shooting star

but what if that star is not to come

will their dreams fade to nothing

when the horizons darkens most

we all need to believe there is hope

is an angle watching closely over me

cant there be a guiding light i've yet to see

i know my heart should guide me but

theres a hole within my soul

what will fill this emptiness inside of me

am i to be satisfied without knowing

i wish then for a chance to see

now all i need (desperately)

is my star to come "

And now, I haven't met Nadira, Mutiara and Liza for quite a long time. I met Syahidah and Amni during raya. Gee, just missed them. Can't find friends like them!

as u can see, my blog has a NEW LOOK! FRESH RED DASHING RED!

Thanks to my sis, Nabila for doing it for me. I will definitely update more often due to this new look of my bloggie. weeeeeeee :D

*Blank*

Im hanging
.. leaving my unspoken words inside of me
Im hanging on
.. letting things flow
Im hanging tight
.. wishing it goes away
Slippery hands..
.. hoping someone will catch me fall
Still hanging tight
.. hoping you understand
Loosing it
.. keep on haunting me
Can't keep on hanging
.. smile upon my face..
Keep on hanging
.. inside crying dreaming of some changes
Still hanging on
.. thinking of the future
Still hanging on tight
.. because I do..

. . . . . .

These two pictures are my favourites!

Baby Umar Naqib aka pelawak.

This picture is taken during fasting month after Terawih together. :)

Reasons why I love the 2nd picture :
1. Baby huzir is wearing songkok. He looks like a very good man which he is. :)
2. I kissed his hand.
3. Baby huzir looks handsome. :D
4. This picture somehow shows how much I love him and so does he.
5. and Baby huzir is wearing kain pelikat which he looks so cute! :D
6. I just love him. What else can I say?

Happy Birthday, my dear friend.

Today is Amni's birthday. "Happy Sweet 18 Amni Musa! God bless you. I will always love you!" :D
Im supposed to attend her surprise birthday party invited by her friend aka huzir's cousin, Putri. But I couldn't make it due to no transportation.

Sorry am... I'll make it up to you. :) Hope you are having a blast with your friends. And yea.. Liza send her love to you. :D

Anyways, I received some of my mid-term exam results. So far, so good. I didn't fail any subjects.Everything is more than just Passed. And now, I have an Excel assignment due Thursday. You could say, me and my partner have done half of the task. Half to go! Nothing much to study for now. Just keep on practicing my maths and do some questions on other subjects. bla bla bla everything goes back to square one.

College College College

I have a lot of things going on in college. I got Process and Procedure essay Quiz next Friday which I have to write an essay around 400 words in 1 hour time. Well, lets put that aside for awhile since the quiz is next Friday.

I got my maths quiz results before my mid-term exam the other day. I got 8/10 . and Im satisfied with it. :D and bout my mid-term exam results, I think I can see my results on Saturday which is the Parents-Meeting Day. Papa is most probably will attend the meeting. Gee, Im looking forward the Parents-Meeting Day.

I got presentation and assignment to do. The dateline is next week. Im doomed since I have no idea how to do the assignment. I have to use the Excel Microsoft.

*Good luck to you, Sabrina*

Im Sorry..

Im sorry for doubting you.
Im sorry I accused you for what you didn't do.
Im sorry for letting you sad.
Im sorry.
Insulting you is not my intention.
You are the lover of my life.
I chose you.
I accept you for who you are.
Your past, your future, and present.
Your history life doesn't bother me.
I don't give a damn bout your past anymore.
I trust you for who you are and you know that.
I've done a huge mistake.
Im truly sorry.
Sometimes I felt insecure.
For once, I wanna feel secure.
My fault for asking you questions that I shouldn't have.
My fault for insulting you.
My fault.My fault.My fault.
Accept my apologies.
so that I can feel secure..

I love you so much..

Eternity..

Oh No!Oh No!Oh No!Oh No!

I have put a lot of weight during fasting month (Which I supposed to be thinner not fatter!) Well, everybody said so. I look a bit plum. So, just now, after tired studying computing principles for tomorrow exam, I browse over pictures in my picture folder. Last time, I used to take pictures. A lot. Whenever I go out with baby, there always a camwhoring session. I can see that I was thin back then. HUAAAAAAAAAA!!

I need to loose some weight!
I need to gain my self-confidence back!
I need my old body back!

Im planning to eat less but doesn't mean I don't have to eat at all. Twice per day. Lunch and dinner. Small quantity of rice. OR better still eat bread or whatever that can at least avoid from gastric. SHOOT! I need to set my goals here. So that I can feel beautiful again.

Both pictures were when I was thin. (Compared to now)

See what I mean?
Need to focus on my new goal now.

What is Stress?

What is Stress?
Stress means your body and mind react with pressure.

Well, Im having my mid-term exam this week. It started last saturday which I had my English exam. I took a cab to get to the Wisma HELP building which is different block from my usual classes are. I was scared that I might get lost since I never been to the place before. Luckily Im smart enough to ask the guard there :) The exam went well. I able to answer all the questions. Today, I had my Study Skills exam. It was awesome! I read through the notes like thousand times. I think I have done my best in the exam hall. Tomorrow, Im having finite maths exam. All the best for me! :D

Anyways, about one month I will face my final exam. I have plans after exam later. (after mid-term and after final later). Feels so stress out till I need to get out of here. go shopping maybe. huh! whatever it is. I need to study. Chau!

Raya Pictures

More pictures in Facebook :)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri :D

Happy Raya to all muslims and happy holidays for all ! :)

Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir dan Batin
:)

I fell in love..

I fell in love with the song Disturbia - Rihanna :D
The song was superb just after I read the lyrics.. I like it.
It Rocks! :D

My Opinion..

The other day, I took a cab to go to Sunway from HELP.. then, the driver was about to make a U-turn till one Mercedes car some sort of never give way to the driver. He was like.. "STUPID!This are Malaysian.Never give in!" I was sitting behind and just.. keep quiet.. nodding AS IF im at his side. Well, maybe its true the Mercedes car never give in.. So, im okay with it ..

BUT later, I notice this taxi driver was like.. NEVER look at his side mirror to change his position from another lane to another lane. I WAS LIKE.. OOOHH MYY GOD! Im freakingly scared because every car was like so fast at that time and he expects the cars will give way to him! Now that is stupid.

After that, there was a traffic jam at the federal highway. Like usual traffic jam during the peak hours. So I kinda .. nevermind la. Bear with the traffic jam and chill. BUT i don't think that it will work with this particular taxi driver Im with. He was like.. keep on horning! LIKE CRAZY i tell you. Feels like wanna shout 'SHUT UP AND DRIVE THAT BASTARD ASS VEHICLE!" and no, of course i didnt say that.

and I pray to God.. Thank God that I arrived Sunway safely.. *phheewww*

Hopefully ...

Hopefully that there will be no other decision. For the very last time, Im not going to Egpyt. Mama and papa decided to give me the chance to do what I like and what I want in life. I was so happy and relieved.
We are done with that.

On 13th, I went out for break fast with my sisters at the BBQ korean style at Seoul Bulgogi.
Super full!

*With The Jasmans*

So, today, I attend classes like usual . Trying to be the best in class :D