Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri :D

Happy Raya to all muslims and happy holidays for all ! :)

Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir dan Batin
:)

I fell in love..

I fell in love with the song Disturbia - Rihanna :D
The song was superb just after I read the lyrics.. I like it.
It Rocks! :D

My Opinion..

The other day, I took a cab to go to Sunway from HELP.. then, the driver was about to make a U-turn till one Mercedes car some sort of never give way to the driver. He was like.. "STUPID!This are Malaysian.Never give in!" I was sitting behind and just.. keep quiet.. nodding AS IF im at his side. Well, maybe its true the Mercedes car never give in.. So, im okay with it ..

BUT later, I notice this taxi driver was like.. NEVER look at his side mirror to change his position from another lane to another lane. I WAS LIKE.. OOOHH MYY GOD! Im freakingly scared because every car was like so fast at that time and he expects the cars will give way to him! Now that is stupid.

After that, there was a traffic jam at the federal highway. Like usual traffic jam during the peak hours. So I kinda .. nevermind la. Bear with the traffic jam and chill. BUT i don't think that it will work with this particular taxi driver Im with. He was like.. keep on horning! LIKE CRAZY i tell you. Feels like wanna shout 'SHUT UP AND DRIVE THAT BASTARD ASS VEHICLE!" and no, of course i didnt say that.

and I pray to God.. Thank God that I arrived Sunway safely.. *phheewww*

Hopefully ...

Hopefully that there will be no other decision. For the very last time, Im not going to Egpyt. Mama and papa decided to give me the chance to do what I like and what I want in life. I was so happy and relieved.
We are done with that.

On 13th, I went out for break fast with my sisters at the BBQ korean style at Seoul Bulgogi.
Super full!

*With The Jasmans*

So, today, I attend classes like usual . Trying to be the best in class :D

A day before break fast

I went for shopping yesterday. Shazana suddenly decided to skip English class and plan to go Sunway Pyramid for shopping. Yes, we went to Pyramid and I shopped like crazy. I bought one flat from Guess, a crystal bracelet that cost me RM200, bought external hard-disk, MNG clutch bag and also accessories from Forever 21. There is a saying that women will shop till they drop if they are stressed or trying to calm themselves. I finds out that it is true and I agree with it. Since I'm confirmed going, a lot of things have been bothering my mind and I release my stress and sadness using this way. Shop till drop. I spent all my money and I dont feel regret spend it all out. In fact, I felt awesome! Satisfied. Relax and Calm too. Cuz when I shop, I concentrate on the things I see and hold. My mind is not at my problems. So, kinda relaxing.. The day continue when baby Huzir join me in Pyramid after he finished his classes. We break fast at Deli Nasi Lemak NYYUUUMM! and watched Death Race. Scary but okay :D

My studies while Im in Help University College is okay :) I do well in my Finite Maths and I like it. Not exactly maths that I learned in Secondary School. It is more to Business and Economics Maths which is FUN! I understand every bit of words and I can catch up quite fast too. In addition, I helped Shazana in any questions she doesn't know how to do. So pity for her if Im going to Egypt. *gonna miss you, dear!*

Some people understands me truly and some just think what they think its right without knowing what is my interest or what im interested in, or what I want in life. Im so disappointed cause they are the one who I should look up to. My life is so in dilemma and misery. I made up my mind and Im okay with it. (trying to be cool with it). and to this blog I post my sadness, misery and confusion..

P/S: to baby Huzir, I shed into tears without telling him my feelings. Thank you sayang for not asking me any questions and console me even though u know nothing.

6th of October 2008

6th of October.. Is the day Im going to Egypt.

"Cuz Im leaving on an aeroplane
I don't know when I'll be back again
ooohh.. babe.. I HATE to go.."

Dedicated to everyone..

I haven't start packing yet.. haven't think what to bring, what to pack, what should I have..
I don't wanna learn how to cook cause that is the worst moment ever when I can do something else.I don't wanna learn arabian language. I just might do my own stuff. KAMIKAZE for awhile..
I wanna continue studying in HELP while waiting for that day to come. Just wanna enjoy my college life before entering a serious and full commitment level.

CAN OR CANNOT?

I AM NOT HAPPY.

I AM NOT HAPPY JUST TO MAKE EVERYBODY ELSE HAPPY.
thank you for that.
I AM TIRED TO EXPLAIN TO EVERYBODY WHAT ARE THE REASONS.
thank you for that too.
I AM SAD BECAUSE HAVE TO SATISFY PEOPLE'S REQUEST.
I appreciate that.
I AM SICK TO FACE PEOPLE like you.
I would love that and thank you.
I HATE I HAVE TO CHOOSE THAT OPTION WHICH I AM NOT HAPPY WITH.
thank you for that people.
I HATE PEOPLE KEEP ON BLAMING OTHER PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE I DON'T WANT WHAT THEY SUGGEST OR WHAT THEY THINK IT IS GOOD (for them only lah.)
thank you sooo much.

*hate you,especially, for ruining my life. thank you so much.

Re-bonding

I straightened back my hair

I figure out that it is easier to handle straight hair

:D

Didn't do anything over the weekend.Baby huzir got a very back ache. He can't move a lot. Really makes me remember papa. How papa used to get back ache and he barely move. Pity baby huzir. Hope he will get well soon.

and I miss you b..

On Merdeka Day

On 30th August, I went out and had dinner at Naili's Place. That place was awesome and I like it. I ordered sup ayam and Rainbow Tree for drink. While huzir ordered beef steak and chocolate milkshake. Anyways, thought that we all are for countdown. But due to the jammed later on, we decided not to.

And on the same day, my parents come to KL. I met them on the 31st. Mama was.. trying her best to persuade me to go to Egypt. AAhhhh... sooo in dilemma. I thought everything was done. Mama was asking .. "Why?Tell me again why you dont want to go?" So I said, "I dont wanna be a doctor. I can spent 5-6 years of studying medic but I dont want to be a doctor.Can or not?"

Mama laughed.. and yet she still hope I will change my mind. . .. .. ..