Sabrina.Sabrina?Sabrina!

A few hundred things about me :

-I used to be a not morning person which I easily get annoyed. So, don't talk to me when I'm not even talking to you. *that was last time* and now I noticed that I am a morning person. Never gets mad at anyone.
-I love dressing up. I even look up in the magazine for newest and the latest fashion. Well, that was during my high school time.
-I noticed that I'm not into 'jambu' type of guys. Yes, they maybe attractive and cute etc, but it just doesn't work for me that way.
-I hate goody-goody-two-shoes guys. They are just pathetic. There are no such thing as goody-goody nowadays.
-I noticed that I love wearing flip flops or thongs or flats instead of sneakers.
-I love doing assignments even though it keeps on bugging me to finish it up.
-I hate shopping for accessories like earrings.
-I can easily cry especially when gets hurt by the special ones and I can't see or hear my loved one cries.
-I adores evening dresses :D
-HATE LALAs. Makes me sick. *sumpah benci*
-hate being neglected!!!!!!!
-I am veerryyy sensitive. Sensitive in every little little things..
-I adores short hair like Rihanna
-I enjoys going out. Love going somewhere else rather than to a shopping mall.
-I noticed that I hate trying new food or new drinks that I never try it before. Likes to stick to what I like.
-always eager to know how if I punch someone feels like. :D
-love facebooking, myspace-ing, and friendster-ing my boyfriend's.
-always wanted to go the beach and have a nice picnic under the bright sunshine wearing evening dresses like an english girl.
-I noticed that I can remember song lyrics easily. I can catch up the words like after twice repeated.
-Enjoys playing games like Pet Society in Facebook :D
-I cannot sleep for long hours.
-I can easily be awake.
-I adores blueberry cake! :D nyummmmmmmmmmmmmm
-my pastime is to surf internet, browse anyone's blog, read up about their life, play with my 'pet' in facebook, nibble on something, clean up my always-messy room.
-I love being with my baby huzir. makes me feel alive cuz he always make stuuuuuppppiddddddddddd jokes.
-I love to repeat stuff that I've hear or watch. like if I bought a CD or DVD, I can watch it many times till I remember every word or sentence said in the movie. :D
-Easily get bored with Boring People.
-In my opinion, I think that life will be interesting if we face something different or new each day. Doesn't matter how bad it will be or how happy it is.
-I hate guys who thinks that they are the best. That is just BULLSHIT.
-I noticed that, in front of the people I hate, I will tell them right in the face without mercy.
-I always keep things to myself when I cannot even express myself.
-I am planning to do International Business and Management later. :D
-uuuuuuuuuuuu how I love maths so much. :D
-I love kids. Cute cute babies.
-Im mixxxxx Chinese Jawa Arab and Melayu, of course :D
-I don't like making people sad or malu..
-I can be very emotional sometimes.

That's all I could say for now after days evaluate myself. hehe :D

Dang!

I had my English exam today. I woke up early and revise again and again on the spotted essays. I printed out the possible essays and it turned out to be helpful. *It's not that the question came out exactly the same only that it kinda help me in some ways. Like extra vocabulary words, a perfect linkers for my essay etc.* Neways, I think I have done quite well just now.. A dalam tangan! *like what my friend, K, said, self motivation is good.* haha :D

Obviously, tomorrow I have no papers. Im just gonna start revising my computing principle that I need to focus on all of the 7 chapters. *which now I hate everything bout computer technology that makes my life even more miserable!*

alahai..

Many things are bothering me..
- Final Exam *how la weh how la..
- Need to study hard to get MOOORREE than just a pass
- Wondering where to continue after this foundation
- Thinking to smooth talk with mama about going to London with my dearest sister, Nabila
- Thinking what to do in BatuPahat later...

It makes me arrgghhhh nak holiday!!
It makes me wanna eat a lot *which mama have to start worrying now if I am eating too much*
It makes me feel wanna speed up the time
It makes me wanna finish me papers..
It makes me wanna go somewhere special where I can feel like Im on a vacation

However, Im trying to think positively ..and just thinking for the time being. for the short period.
:(

ARRRGHHH.. kusut masai susah hati jiwa kacau

My time to be happy..

How do I get to know Huzir? Well, that moments are still fresh in my mind. How his face reaction was, how was the feeling at that time, and how I cheated my boyfriend over Huzir. Its bad but I had a huge crush over him and I just could not resist the fact that Im loving someone else instead of my boyfriend. Well, obviously he makes me feel different while for my boyfriend (that time) was controlling me like hell! Track me down using the Friend Finder thingy makes me wanna slap him right at the face! Well, bygone be bygone. I still can recall the FIRST time I met him in college.

At that time, I was in Sunway University College where I kinda passed by him and kinda see but never look at him. I could say that I bumped into him like ..once in a week which is not so often. But, there is one time I was at the Pink restaurant heading inside the college where I met him and I actually smiled at him. I was like a .. Hey-I-Noticed-You-Smile. I didn't think any further but secretly I was attracted to him.

Days past by till this time when I was in the computer lab doing my work, I saw him and smiled at him. *just a friendly smile since I smiled at him before*. No big. I started doing my work. After few minutes later, someone enters the lab room that I was in and asking whether there is a class or not. I said no and surprisingly noticed that it was THAT guy. He started walking to the seat right next to me and asking me hoping that he can seat right next to me. I have piles of stuff that I have to dump it on my lap just to give up that seat. Okay. That was fine by me. As he was busy doing his thang, I glanced over at his computer and he was browsing over some car websites (e-kereta or something). The next thing I know was, he logged off his computer, turned to me, and say ..

"I don't know what Im doing here. Actually Im here to get your phone number".

He straight away took out his O2 PDA and hoping that I give him my phone number. LUCKILY, I did! :D The night itself we texted each other, talked on the phone like no one cares. Just love those moments when he accompanied me in college till night and I start develop some feelings for him. and I just loves it! Adventurous moments when my boyfriend called me saying that he knows where I am *cuz he friend finder me*. So, he have to send me back to college afraid that I might get scolded by my boyfriend. *I just hated it*. We went to Genting Highland one week after he wanted a full commitment relationship with me, he came to BatuPahat and meet my parents, just enjoying every moment of it. I can still feel those feelings everytime I looked at him.

Always think that..

"Is this the guy that I met back in those days?" "Is this the guy that made me go crazy only that I pretend that I am not?" "Is this the guy that I was jealous when his not-so-ex called him eventhough I have no rights to say anything since I am still attached to my boyfriend?" "Is this the guy?"

Well, it is and Im glad that he is. I love him. So much. I couldnt say more.. Saying those words is just not enough.

Him = He = My One = My Only = Huzir..

I Quote,

The Happiness You Give Is Something I'll Never Get Enough Of,
I Love Having You In My World
And I Love Having You To Love.

-Huzir Zainal

P/S: He mentioned to me bout not posting anything bout him in my blog.
Da post ni da, b :)

Model for the day

Kak Hana asked me a favor being her model for MAC membership. So, I am a bride for today. :)
So, here some shots.

Taadddaaa!



More pictures just go to Madam Hana blog.
:)

If..

What if killing, shooting, murdering are legal in this country, who is your first and the following targets?

1) My One and Only Lecturer
2) Men that look at women like never seen one.
3) All of my boyfriend's ex-es who still contacting him. *like stay away la weh.
4) The man in the movie "I am A Sex Addict". *He just disgust me.
5) The person who created cigarettes.
6) The person who started all the alcoholic drinks.
7) One guy that almost ruin my life once upon a time. *luckily I'm not that stupid.
8) Perverts, Flasher .. whatever you named it.

Who are yours?
:D
Share it with me.

After this that there here..

As what has planned, today I supposed to buy a new laptop which I did. :) Instead of buying the HP Pavilion tx 2500, I bought Sony VGN-FW23GW. The screen is ssuuuppeerr duppeerr huge. puas wehh kalau tgk movie *especially when watching Gossip Girl* Anyways, I bought it after all the dramas in MidValley. Thought wanna go to Digital Mall but seemed we were running out of time, I just bought this laptop since this is the only laptop that Im attracted to. :)

Meet up with Huzir's mom and had dinner. Had the the whole day searching for the perfect laptop. phheewww tired..~~

Pervert!

Okay. As you all know, Im staying in HELP residence which there is a constructing going on in front of my building. So, the scenery I can view from my bedroom's window is a building undergo construction. WHICH means a lot of Indonesian, Banglas.. vietnamese and all. As usuall, I open the curtains to let the bright sunshine shines into my bedroom. As I were looking outside, I spotted one Indonesian workers. He was sweeping the floor *or doing something which I don't even care*. All out of the sudden, he stopped sweeping and look straight at my direction. and he WAVES at me!!! I was like.. WHAT THE HELLLLLL???? is it Im perasan or that guy is just a pervert? GOD! I was super scared. Then, I bend down, lay down my head on my table. After awhile, I try to look and see whether he is still looking or not. I got more freaked out when he was smiling!! I noticed that because all I can see is that white teeth of his which makes me OHH MYYY GOD! Scary Freaky Pervert!

I quickly close the curtain and just stay away from the window. Huh.. what a morning pervert experience I had just now.. :S

Dear Syahidah..

Dear Syahidah..

Wherever you are right now..
I miss you
We used to be so closed
but now we barely talk to each other
What are you doing?
Are you happy with your life?
Are you doing well there?
You are miles away from me
Even I'm in front of you, you keep things to yourself
I miss you.. :(
Where have you been all this while?
Remember you are always there when I'm sad, when I cursed guys and you still support me in every way..
Remember you told me .. "Take things that happened positively"..
and I did..
You are my partner in anything.
My crime partner, my chenta, my girlfriend, my childhood partner.
*till Nabila said we are like isi dengan kuku*
I'm just wondering why you haven't contact me..
I want you to know I'm here for you even though we are far away from each other..
Or is it my fault?
Whatever it is.. I miss you. :"(

Fuiiyyooooo

Excitingly I have done my assignments and handed in already. The best thing in doing assignments is after all the hard work and effort u put in, you will somehow feel the satisfaction after the assignments are completed. Which it makes me feel good. yeah bebeh. :) Now, i got few other things to do. JUST computing principles and maths quiz, computing principle powerpoint presentation, English oral presentation, and final exam. Yeap.. just few other things to go. That is why I'm taking one step at a time (the song by Jordan Sparks) :P .. I recovered from my fever already. I gave my lecturer medical certificate the day I absent for his class. He was like.. "Why sabrina.. always sick?" Cuz last time, I had my diarrhoea and it happened on the day I am having class with him.. So, I said "I had fever, sir. Plus, I have a very low antibody" :P Then, it was settled.

My english presentation is next week on Tuesday. So, I decided to wear the dress that I bought last month which I just wore it once for a sweet date on Saturday with my baby. It is black with small flowery design on it. With my hair tight up nicely, and pair of heels from Nine West elegantly holding a Nine West handbag. Classy right.. :D I have to present myself properly so that I am confident to do my presentation. :)

Yesterday Nabila called me and crying. I was like.. why whats up again la with this girl. Emotional breakdown. Sad of her love life or exams. I thought. Well, she cried because my sister, Kak Ana is sick. Really sick. She has spinal cord slipped-disk like mama had last time because of carrying my fatty bom bom Nabila when she was little. *When I say fatty bom bom, imagine a polar bear because she was white like snowwww and fat like a polar bear. Which is cute, actually. haha!!* anyways, Nabila cried .. pity on kak Ana. Kak Ana cannot move a lot, cannot go to work as a physiotherapist, cannot cook, shopping for hours.... cannot do anything!! I was sad when Nabila cried telling me that. *Kesian kak ana. :'( * Hope she will undergo operation and lead a normal life back. Don't worry kak Ana.. you have your sisters to take care of you! Get well soon. *Hugs and kisses mwah mwah mwahhhhhhhhhhhh*

Anyways, I feels like wanna grab this phone!!

LG KS360

*sigh..

I can't sleep well. My head is spinning. Feels so heavy. Feels wanna explode! I hate it.. I vomited twice yesterday night.. happened around 2 am.. and baby huzir straight away come and see me.. gave me medicine which I don't have it with me.. :( I didn't go for classes for two days now including this morning. Missed lectures a lot, i guess. SHIT. have to see lecturer especially my maths lecturer. She thought new chapter yesterday evening. Damn it. Then, I vomited again around 4 am.. since I vomited all out at 2am, I vomited liquid substances only at 4am. I had fever with complete headache package. ARRHHHH.. feels like wanna bang my head against the wall. I didn't eat the whole day yesterday. Baby Huzir brought porridge for me but I just ate for 3 spoon feed. Thats my meal for yesterday. Drank one small bottle of 100plus. I felt a little bit better today. but my head still spinning. Baby huzir didn't get much sleep as he was taking care of me. Poor baby. Anyways, this morning, I woke up around 10 am, which I missed my classes, I feel so hungry that I wants to eat something that is spicy, like asam laksa.. so, baby huzir took me to Medan near Sunway College. Instead of eating asam laksa, I ate nasi lemak with sambal sotong. Looks delish but once it enters my throat, feels like wanna vomit. But today, my fever went off already. just headache is still on. Hope it went off as soon as possible as I HAVE FUCKING LOT ASSIGNMENTS DUE NEXT WEEK!! :"((

The good Old times

I just visited amni's blog. She posted some pictures. pictures of all of us. I forgot on how we used to be very damn good friend. In school, always been the four of us. *Liza and Nadira went to boarding school* The best part was the four of us (Amni, Syahidah, Mutiara and I) were prefect that time. and Amni was the head of prefect. So, what the heck ey. hehe Even though Liza and Nadira is apart from us, we still see each other once in awhile. We all became super good friends when we were in Form 2. I sat right next to Liza and becomes best friend. Really miss those moments when we had our own song. Like others, we have our own group name. Shii which define as Happy. *but the group name doesn't exist now since we all grown up but the name will always be remembered* We even have our own song..

" wishing on a dream that seems far off

hoping it will come today

into the starlit night

foolish dreamers turn their gaze

waiting on a shooting star

but what if that star is not to come

will their dreams fade to nothing

when the horizons darkens most

we all need to believe there is hope

is an angle watching closely over me

cant there be a guiding light i've yet to see

i know my heart should guide me but

theres a hole within my soul

what will fill this emptiness inside of me

am i to be satisfied without knowing

i wish then for a chance to see

now all i need (desperately)

is my star to come "

And now, I haven't met Nadira, Mutiara and Liza for quite a long time. I met Syahidah and Amni during raya. Gee, just missed them. Can't find friends like them!

as u can see, my blog has a NEW LOOK! FRESH RED DASHING RED!

Thanks to my sis, Nabila for doing it for me. I will definitely update more often due to this new look of my bloggie. weeeeeeee :D