To be or not to be.

The title above doesn't relate at all to what Im about to type. I don't know what should I name my post this time. Well, it is easy for Amni to title each post as numbers. and now her current post is number sixty-five.

Anyways, I didn't go out for two days now. *including today* I was sleeping the whole day yesterday, and in the evening, I was in my room surfing. I could say that the maxis broadband is quite fast these days while Im in BP. :) Surprisingly it is. I watched Wild Child many times even though I watched that movie in the Cinema with my baby huzir sleeping like a baby. I didn't notice that I was talking alone. Nevermind. He must have been very tired. *That's his first time, though* haha and I log in to Facebook all the time 24/7. So, every updates, I think Im the first one to read.

I invited Azliza to go out tomorrow but seems not because she is going to KL and celebrate new years eve there and be back on the 4th of January. There is no time to think of new years eve right now. Well, it comes in the second in my THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT list. I am worried about my results. I was hoping for a High Distinction in Maths and English. And Distinction for Study Skills. and at least a Credit for my Computing Principles. God, my scared are beyond words, I tell you. I can't remember how hard or easy the papers were. Except for Computing Principles. It is damn hard to forget!

I had my plans organized. I have to be back on the 31st. On the 1st of January, my results will be out. And I got 2 days to clean my room perfectly and buy stuff for my second semester. and classes will commence on 5th of January! Scary as it is, Im excited too. :) And, the last of part of the planning is to celebrate new years eve there!

Sometimes, I feels so guilty sleeping for hours and hours and hours doing nothing. Apart from reading eclipse, of course. I think I should read something beneficial like related to my second semester. I should get ahead start but I just don't know what to read and learn. I always have my ahead start. Even before I enter form 5, I get my hands on those biology books during the holidays. I didn't get a clear message on what will be on my second semester but I know what subjects Im taking.

One thing for sure, tomorrow Im going out with my friends and pack all of Nabila's stuff and dump it into her car. All set and I'm ready to go!

p/s: number 3 in my THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT is to think about my new resolutions for year 2009!

SNAP!

My results will be out on the 1st of January. Snap!


Classes starts on 5th of January. Snap!


Need to prepare myself before second semester starts. Snap!


Need to think of my new resolutions for year 2009. Snap!

Bloody Hell.

I HATE MY HANDPHONE.

BLOODY HELL

My phone is so bloody hell. Always 'No Signal' or 'Emergency'. Sickening. I have to stretch my hand so that my phone is up high just to get signal and able to send a message. When I try to call, I have to stand, move front and back just to get that bloody signal for my bloody handphone. Shoot! I just can't wait to get back my other handphone which I sent to a repair shop and hoping it is okay to use.

Well Well Well

Im back in my hometown. Huzir's mom drove all the way from KL to send me back to BP accompanied by Huzir. So, yeah, they met mama and papa. Finally. :P They stayed for awhile. Had lunch at my place. Mama cooked a lot and delishh.

Well, in the evening, for the very first time, I drove Nabila's Perodua Nautica with Sis Anna, my co-pilot and Abang Kerol as my passenger. :D Drove to the town. Around 6 pm, I went out again with Syahidah, picked up my friend Azliza and headed to Amni's house. Just hang out for a while. :D

Nothing much to do today. Just doing mama a favour to buy stuff for her. I'll be back on 31st December. And I could celebrate New Year's Eve there! :D

Thank You.

I am now officially 18 years old.
Sweet 18.
Legal.

Right 12.00am today, Baby wishes me. He is the first one who wishes me Happy Birthday Darling. Well, that was his dream to be the one to do so. :) Anyways, he bought one big chocolate cake from Secret Recipe. :) and gave me one book of love from him. Written all of his love in that black book. I am surprised because he put so much effort in it and Im touched. Thank you sayang. That is the best gift and I appreciate it sayang. I love you sooo much baby. We celebrate at his place since no where nice place that I want to go. :D

Nabila called from London :D Her friends, were shouting Happy Birthday to me. Thank you!! :D

My friends all wishes me this morning. Thank you, you guys. *Hugs and kisses*

Huzir is being gedik. :D

Umar said : "This cake is irresistible." :D

Woot Woot

So, I was in KL on 19th Dec, at 11.14 am. Baby huzir picked me up at R&R Serdang. I was soooo happy to finally meet him again. Totally forgot how his face looks like because all I know was, I missed him soo much. :D So, on that day, we watched Wild Child at MidValley Megamall. Thought wanna watch Twilight but the seat was too too front.

On the 20th Dec, went to Ipoh Perak for his cousin's wedding. It was a fun trip and a bit tiring but that doesn't matter because he is beside me all the time. :D

So, today.. is his birthday. Huzir's Birthday. I gave him a chocolate heart-shaped cake which I made it myself. Emphasize on the 'I made it myself' part. Hehe. I was working hard to make that cake a success. :D I love it. *I hope you like the cake which I made it myself, baby.* I put a lot of effort to do that cake. ALONE. No one help me. Not even my maid. Cis! :P

Well, its the thought that counts.

So, here is my birthday song from me to you,

Happy birthday, baby..
Happy birthday, baby..
Happy birthday to my only baby..
Happy birthday to you..

I love you so much! You are ... now. Don't deny it baby. :D

Just now, we went out and watched When The Earth Stood Still. It was interesting as it is. :D Just hang out and had fun. :D

Then, I was on the phone with mama. I said, I wanna stay a little bit longer in KL and mama was like asking papa. Papa said.. "Okay". Okay for papa means Okay for mama. Woot Woot! :D Im loving it!

Here are some of the pictures. The picture with the cake that I baked is not available right now but will be uploaded later. :D :-

Money CAN Buy Happiness.

Who says money can't buy happiness? For some reasons money can and cannot.

Money CAN buy happiness.
1) You no need to worry to think of your financial problems.
2) When you have money, you some sort of feel secure.
3) If you have only money, you can survive!
4) When you have no financial problems, you ARE happy.
5) When you have no financial problems, you will feel MORE RELAX and not feeling stress.
6) Like you when you win lottery or whatever, you get money and HAPPY in return.
7) In short, money is important and it does brings happiness.

Money CANNOT buy happiness.
1) If you are rich, but lack of love, no point.



Well, obviously I agree on Money CAN buy happiness.

Although, every situation depends.

For me, no money, whats the point? You ain't going no where, You will lead into a messy life, You will increase your stress hormone due to the problems you are facing, You will face a lot of diseases etc. Indeed, money CAN buy happiness. I just couldn't agree more.

O ma God O ma God!

I totally forgot to tell you. On Monday, I had my JPJ driving test. I waited for my turn to drive that damn kancil and I able to do so in the afternoon. Like around 3.00 something. I drive properly and do like I was thought.

and I PASSED.

woot woot. I know I always can drive. *hehe* Anyways, I passed the test and I was shouting happily on the phone with baby huzir that I succeed! :P No more going to driving practice No more going to face another JPJ officer. No more I tell ya. As soon after I came out from the car that I drove, I called mama. And mama was saying, "Wowww.Congratulations, adik. After this, you can drive my mercedes car." and I was like "TAAKKNAAKKK. I want Suzuki Swift!" :P
I suppose to get my Suzuki Swift, red colour. Papa booked the car in January for me but since I haven't get my license yet, Papa cancelled it. Nevermind though. I'll get it eventually. :D

Okay, I've done the 2nd part of my HAVE TO DO list. The first one is to get my Passport and Yay Me, I get it. :D

Tomorrow I shall do the 3rd part in my HAVE TO DO list. which is, Im gonna dye my hair. :) New colour for new year. hehe I am thinking to colour my hair dark red. But, we'll see.

Since my sister already left Malaysia yesterday at 3am, Im alone in this mansion! Maid that always busy cleaning, mama working. and no one to talk to. LUCKILY I can online anytime I want. I didn't go out even I have my driving license now. So, I spent my time reading this book titled 'eclipse'. I think it is the continuation from 'twilight' which is now in the Cinemas. Interesting book to read.

Well, thats that. Can't wait to go back to KL!! :D

Planning a Plan.

I can't help myself but to look at the calendar and plan.


Plans:
19 Dec
- 8.30 am off to KL
- Around 11.30 am -12.00 pm arrive KL, baby huzir will fetch me.
- Go out till late at night. Watch movies MARATHON! because I promise him to watch all the movies that we missed while we had our finals and I didn't watch it while Im at hometown.

20th Dec
- Go to the Kak Alia's wedding. *baby Huzir's cousin*
- Went out AGAIN!!!! woot woot :D

21th Dec
- Baby Huzir's Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*ENOUGH said. :D*

22nd Dec
- Suppose to go back but I decided to stay a little bit longer.
Just spend time with my baby.

23rd Dec
- So many things to do So little time. INDEED time is jealous of me.

24th Dec
- My birthday! Sweet sweet 18. :D *Me and Huzir are December babies.Weeeeeeeee*

25th Dec
- Heading back hometown.

26th Dec
- Ponge Ponge Ponge

27th Dec
- Hangout with friends, I guess.

28th 29th 30th Dec
- Same old drama.

31st Dec
- Going back KL!!!
- Celebrate New Year!!

My plans for few more days before new year 2009 appears!!

Huzir.KL.Birthdays.

Alright. Here is the thing.

I've been staying home and do nothing. I didn't hang out with my friends except that one time Syahidah *my BFF* came and lepak at my house. and for other reasons, I went out with Nabila to buy stuff because she is going to London. WITHOUT me. Sick right. I know.

The Main Point is that.. I need to get my social life back!!

Okay. Back to what Im saying, I was bored and so I started planning to go back to KL this Saturday morning (20th Dec) due to huzir cousin's wedding which I was invited. So, I told mama and she said, "sure.You can go.Go on the 19th Dec and be back on 22nd Dec". She knows that baby Huzir's birthday on the 21st. :D But I was thinking to stay a little bit longer in KL since my birthday is on 24th of Dec. So that I could celebrate my birthday with baby huzir for the very first time.

Like .. HELL-OOOOO what am I going to do to celebrate my 18th birthday here???There will be no celebration at all! My friends are not in BP either. Mutiara off to Hong Kong already, Amni started her second semester already, Liza off to Bali, Syahidah I don't know and Nadira I have no idea.

I DON'T CARE. I can't wait to go back to KL because I miss baby Huzir and Im craving for Paddington Pancake. :D

My birthday is coming up! I am expecting something reallyyy reallyyy breathtaking from my sister Nabila. *You better buy me good stuff sista!* :D I can't wait to just spend time with baby huzir. Thats the only gift I want from him. Muacksss! :)

Weak ..

I feel so weak now.
So long haven't seen my baby huzir.
Miss him terribly
:(
Only God knows how I miss him so much.



My daily routine here in my hometown apart from missing baby huzir so fucking much, are
sleep like never sleep before
eat like always
go out with sis Nabila like it is A must
Surfing is my favourite *even the connection sucks!*
Korean dramas Taiwan movies Japan series fills up my day
On the phone with baby huzir like my first priority now
all of these make me can't wait to start my second semester!
oh God, speed up the time.
Please!

First Love vs True Love

Simple.

First love is the love that you will never ever forget. Well, at least you still remember his/her name. More like, the moment that drags you to the love world for the very first time.

True love is the love that you have it truly madly deeply. Like, it seems that you have found the right one. Willing to sacrifice for the one you love. Now, that is true love.

A big NO-NO for you to get married with your first love. Why?
1) It's more like your not-so puppy love. Still young to decide.
2)First loves are always sucks. *Either he/she pathetic or a jerk.
3)No experience at all! You should find experiences. Meet with new people, get a new guy, have a new relationship, know people, be wild hunting your partner and stop when you think found one ... etc.
4)No experience in breaking up. and one day, when your relationship doesn't work out, you'll end up getting fucking hurt. *Trust me. because you never feel it before.
5)You start to depend on your partner too too much until you feel that you got no life anymore when he started to turn his back on you.
6)You have no experiences in all sorts kind of love. Its all about experiences that makes you even better and that is when you find your true love.

True love always the best one. Why?
1) Like duuhh~
2) The right one or should I say, Mr Right or Mr You-Are-The-One. :D
3) You know how to deal with such relationships. and know how to handle any problems intelligently.
4) You are aware with any type of situations and makes you know what to do.
5) You are smart enough already to know what's up with your partner.
6) By the time you think you found your true love, you have gain experiences.
7) Well, go hunt for your Mr. Right then. :D

Well, my first love was the suck-est. So called first-love. haha. But, I don't regret because it is part of life when you make mistakes and just deal with it. I just think of it as my experiences in life. But then again, you might not know what is going to happen in life. It is just a random topic in my point of view after witnessing all sorts of love tragedy! :D

*No need to talk about my true love now lah. You know already what.. :P ;)

Missing You

I am in BatuPahat now. Reached house around 4 pm. Traffic jam in Seremban. Guess everyone balik kampung.

HOME SWEET HOME

Missing baby huzir so much. Hope he is okay all by himself.
To kak hana: Jage huzir like u always do. Die menggatal, belasah die.

Nothing much to do here. Maxis Broadband sucks. So lembab. Have no plans for tomorrow. I decided to really enjoy my holiday this time. Because my second semester will be more tougher than ever! *everyone said so.* Need to relax my mind for as long as I can!

I Hate the past

I HATE THE PAST
IT IS SUCH A DISTURBING
I JUST HATE HIM
HE MAKES MY LIFE NOW MORE MISERABLE THAN EVER!
HE MAKES MY BOYFRIEND'S LIFE EVEN MORE AND MORE MISERABLE!
WHY CAN'T HE JUST BACK OFF AND STAY AWAY FROM ME
GOD.. HOW I HATE HIM SO MUCH

Anyways, this HIM Im talking about is my Ex. My STUPID Ex! He is such a desperate person.
STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID
God, Hate him gile babi lah.
Enough said.

To my baby Huzir,
Sorry sayang for this incident. I need your trust. I want you to know that I love you and NOT him. It will never be HIM. never going to be HIM. HE will never ever be able to get the position to be with me. I love you so much.

Ada ke.. Iyer ke..

People said my face looks like Fazura the actress.
Some said Fazura looks like me.
Some said the shape of my face is the same as Fazura's which makes us looks alike.
Which makes no difference since my pipi sudah tembam.
Well, mama and papa said I'm prettier than Fazura.
:D :P ;)